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Monday, April 22, 2013

放手,成全。

每一个人,都会有一段难忘的回忆。当然,这一段难忘的回忆其实拥有许许多多的欢笑、眼泪等。但,有许多人却为了这一段回忆,让自己锁在一个叫做“执著”的监狱里。让自己每天都过着一个叫做“痛苦”的生活。这样子,难道就真的值得吗?

也许对旁观者来说,放手的确是一个很简单的安慰。但对于那些受伤的人,其实并没有那么简单,而我也了解这样的痛苦。我受过伤,也曾经执著,但要我去放手,却用了我许多时间。因为我知道,一个人对付出有很大的期待。而一个得不到的期待,就有如得不到一个小孩子得不到自己想要的玩具时的那种感觉。

苦肉计难道有用吗?有时候,我们并不了解故事的发展和结束,但却不断的对某人献计。让他不断的沉沦下去,一直到无法自拔时,才不断的劝人家放手。这样子,有用吗?我不了解你们的故事,但至少我觉得不要把彼此搞到连朋友都无法当成的地步。正所谓:勉强是没有幸福的。难道这样的一个道理,你还不了解吗?

爱情就是这样巧妙。我还记得我的第二人女友曾经对我说过:在爱情里,其实并没有谁对谁错。刚开始,我并不了解这句话的含义。但现在,我却知道了一点。爱情当然不能归罪任何人,因为这不是一个人的事,而是两个人。也许今天你觉得你放手,又或者是你的拒绝而伤害到对方是一个错误,但有时候却没有你想象中的那没糟糕。也许今天你的放手或成全,回味对方带来了一个更好的幸福,难道这样子,不好吗?

在爱情里,“放手”,并不是一件坏事,也许你会为对方带来了一个更好的幸福。也可以让自己找到更好的。不要因为一口认定了这个人就是你的唯一,就不去理别人的感受,不断地对别人展开一连串的追求。这样只会让你们连朋友都当不成。

“成全”,并不是要你牺牲你爱的人,而是用另一种方式去爱你所爱的人。

爱情里,学会在适当的时候放手和成全,才会为彼此带来幸福。执著,只会让大家过的更不高兴。

Saturday, April 20, 2013

咖啡

Hot Vanilla Latte,这是我最近常常接触的一种咖啡。也许你会觉得我大概是走火入魔,一直去喝这样的东西,或者是太过富有。但我却觉得,这样的一种享受,是让自己可以了解生活上的某些东西,不是每一样都可以那么甜蜜。

我曾经对自己说过:不要让甜蜜模糊了自己的视线,更不要因为过度的甜蜜,让自己得意忘形。而今天的我,还是对这句话紧紧地牢记在心里。我知道对于我的体质,咖啡对我是一个很不健康的饮品,但我却无法对这种苦涩的味道无法忘怀。

咖啡常常让我感到沉醉。也许一杯咖啡,让我可以沉醉在某些事情,更让我对一些事情有更多的了解。简单一点,我曾经因为感情而感到迷惑。但一杯简单的咖啡和一位朋友,让我对这些东西有更多地看法。

曾经,我还在留恋着某一段过去。也许,我伤害的人实在是太多,错过的更多。但,我却无法对自己否认,我对每一段发生过和没发生过的感情都是认真的。伤害我和我伤害的人,谢谢你们,让我更加珍惜这一段恋情,更让我知道,原来爱情可以这么简单。

一杯咖啡,让我可以想通许多事情。也许你会觉得这是一个让自己可以花钱的借口,但我却觉得这是一个可以让我想通许多东西的方法。

Hot Vanilla Latte,这是一杯很好喝的咖啡。

Thursday, April 11, 2013

From a Geography Teacher to.......

Is a very sensitive topic tonight. Is not because I wanna discuss politic issue here, but just wanna nagging around about what I been through in this few month. Seriously, self satisfaction is not a good thing for you to digest something hard. Just like you eating a food that you dislike to eat, and you still need to be happy and swallow it into your mouth, and end up with the word "delicious". Is that a bit sounds like self cheating?

I am, or I suppose to be a secondary school Geography teacher. Well, if you know what I mean by "secondary". But don't know why, I been sent to a primary school by KPM because of all the primary school in Malaysia lack of Chinese Teacher. And this kind of offer called as "Interim", what is that? Sort like intern plus under observation thing with a contract. So, most of the people will think that this kind of offer only for few months, but when they reach their school, they face with a lot of problems. Example, some of them think they not suppose to stay there; some of them think they are bla bla bla.....whatever, skip this part. The most important thing here, the school just gave them a lot of never ending jobsssssssssssss. During that time, I felt very proud of myself because my school think I not necessary to carry any job because I'm not suppose to stay in that school. But.......with some idjits that jealous on me, they try their best to cause me a lot of trouble, and it ends up with sending me to another school. How glad I am, my cousin's formal school.

The day before I report myself in this school, one disaster already helped me to "promote" my name in this school. And once I step into this school, still try to be a good friend with me. Please, I'm not idiot, so I will just treat you as colleague, not more than that. With the power of my "boss", she gave me my first job, which is become a coach for the male basketball team. Acceptable...... and the second job, as a "Recovery Teacher". Serious????? You ask the one who lack of patient to do the job that need the most patient? You got me. And not, still gave me a new job, which is BNK. What the hell is BNK? Bimbingan dan Kaunseling. In English, is Guidance and Counselling! They really though that I graduated from Oxford or Harvard. Like I can do everything.

Sometimes, is not because of the duty that we carry is too heavy for us. But we just don't know what are we really are now. Is it because of "teacher" can teach everything and do everything? If yes then why you still need to separate all these courses in University? Just let it become a major course, no need separate into another sub field.

I seriously don't know what am I now. But I still need to carry it on. Perhaps someday, I will meet my true path. Perhaps..........