低潮

人生难免会经历过大大小小的低潮，而这些低潮，却是能够让一个人改变。怎么样的改变呢？也许是变强；也有可能是变弱。但，唯一不变的，这个地球不会因为你而停下来。

这两个星期应该算得上是我这半年来最低潮的一段时间。劳累与繁忙，工作上的压力，让我彻底的守不住自己的堡垒，也让自己生病了。所以疑问就出现了，那就是我真的有那么差吗？

其实想想看，自己坚持了那么久，到底有没有真的休息到呢？

实际上，没有啊。

我曾经认为自己是很强的。挨过了三年，应该可以算得上是百毒不侵。但，我开始怀疑是不是自己在胡思乱想。我真的那么强吗？一直去体谅别人，告诉他们别把自己的压力放在心上，要不然自己会很难受。但这个情况回到自己的身边时，却是没有效果。

无奈的我，到今天还是无法从病痛中痊愈。事事不顺的两个星期，让我彻底的觉得，我需要假期。所以，在这两个星期的假期里，我要好好的修养，来让我能够好好的度过下半年。

加油吧～

Stress

Life is a weird thing. Especially in my life. I kinda confidence when I face a lots of stress, no matter in working or relationship. In mentally, I always tell myself that screw those all negative particle out of my mind so that I could be happy, but in physically, I guess my body keep on telling me that "dude, don't cheat yourself, stress already growth many fucking roots in your body and I bet that you can't cure it no matter how". Unfortunately, I guess he won the bet because I hear the melody of sickness.

Pathetic for myself, I know how important to sound it out if you really know that stress in haunting you, even I keep on telling my family members, friends and students so that it will make it better. But I can't practical that in my life because I know how much stress they carry and I might make affect others when they know my stress. And it might make them more suffering and feel hopeless in their life. So I choose to be silents and more understanding. I try to cheer myself by rewarding myself and mix with a lot of happy persons so that I will forget all those shits that happen on me. But is really hard because I know that people won't understand my situation, because what I want them to know is I just want them to be happy and always live in a good situation no matter how deep the shit we get into. 

People will not appreciate, maybe some will. But they will think that you just do some stupid thing and act like a hero. But try to think deeply, if I'm not going to be the hero that cure your stress and make you happy, then who is going to be that person? Is it mean that we all going to be sad and stress, start to doubt and put some angers on others people we care? I willing to drown myself in this dark water than to see all of you sad and angry because of the life.

Maybe the path I choose just too idiot or a no u-turn one way trip, but if you ask me to choose, I still going to choose this path instead of seeing people I couldn't runaway from the harm and sadness in their life. 

Perhaps I just want someone to agree or support me. And maybe understand me so that I still can carry myself. Now, I just want to runaway from this life. Maybe one day, alone and go for the place that I can rest my body and mind......

2016年教师节心声

今天（五月十六日）是我国（马来西亚）一年一度的教师节。首先，我想在这里对所有的教师们说“教师节快乐”。也感谢为我付出的老师，因为你们对我的细心教导，才会有今天的我。感谢大家对我无私的付出。

不知不觉，我也在教育界里混了六个年头。在这六年里，我也度过了六次教师节。第一次过得很开心，因为身边都是一班不会读书，但却很搞笑的中学生。第二年是大学毕业，第三至第五年，则是在小学度过。到了今年，我想我开始对教师节感到心累。或者我该说，我已经不知道教育是什么样子的一个东西。它是否还是当年我所认识的它吗？

今年的教师节，让我非常的劳累。从早上忙到下午，想要睡一个午觉都不能。晚上，还要批改一大堆的考卷。教育节是什麽？是一个让老师们知道工作一定要定时完成的节日吗？庆祝这个节日，还需要老师们来自己策划，然后自己取悦自己。这份工作值得让我去开心吗？倒不如来给我一个美好的假期吧。至少我会觉得全国的老师们都会认同我的说法。

曾经听人说过，要找一份好的工作，一定是要有一个让自己可以开心的工作的环境。如果你不开心，那么再好的工作，都会让你失去热忱。我相信这一点。我每一天都要让自己努力的开心，也要让自己身边的同事与朋友们都开心。因为我相信，身边的人只要开心及有正能量，那么就算是有怎么样烂的上司，都不会影响到我的心情。

现今的教育制度，其实已经开始变质。变好或变坏，都没有一个很好的答案。最重要的是，教师们与学生们都可以过得开心。但，有可能吗？报纸上的报导，真的显示出学生与教师们最真实与开心的一面吗？哈哈哈哈哈～

此时此刻的我，好累啊～或许我该像蛋黄哥那样，睡在地上，然后大声的说：好累啊～不想上班～但，还是别想太多了。这是不可能的。啊啊啊啊～～～算了，词穷，晚安～